So in the next couple of weeks, I finally meet with a psychiatrist to decide what medications they think will help with the ADD and depression. My shrink told me yesterday he thinks I have chronic low-level anxiety, which kind of surprised me.
“Do you think you don’t?” he said.
“No, it’s just that no one has ever said that to me before. It hadn’t occurred to me,” I said. But the more I thought about it, the more sense it made. We discussed medication (he’s a psychologist and is as cautious about drugs as I am, which I like) and I told him I’d heard many bad things about anti-anxiety drugs. I’ve also seen them kick off a whole cascade of related problems in people I know, so I’m very wary.
He said he’s seen a pattern in which I overwhelm myself with information and stress out about the possibilities of things.
“I’m a blogger,” I said. “It’s kind of inherent in the job description.”